tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post875382831664102989..comments2023-10-12T08:52:07.014-07:00Comments on Two Kids and a Fish: Half-truths and sugar-coated memoriesBuy Me Dinnerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11043077751478614270noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-39950851232827276692011-08-11T22:48:50.551-07:002011-08-11T22:48:50.551-07:00my biggest "journal" fear? me dying and ...my biggest "journal" fear? me dying and my mom reading my journal. I have to be able to say what I need to say but would hate to think that after I am gone, I would hurt her that bad. Friends have instructions. if I die...1. take all my journals and well...I don't know yet. 2. empty the bottom drawer of my bedside table and the bottom shelf of my bookshelf. oh, and the survivor books...and the book about being the daughter of a narcissist needs to go byebye as well. I better live longer than her...the guilt would kill me again!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-8664250421647149932011-05-31T21:36:35.372-07:002011-05-31T21:36:35.372-07:00T: Perspective. Another "You nailed it!"...T: Perspective. Another "You nailed it!" moment. I know there were times when I was really hurting, but the words on these pages don't reflect that all. <br /><br />Five years is a long time so I understand where you're coming from and I understand your decision. Wishing you much peace and love!Buy Me Dinnerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11043077751478614270noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-77192209441396747662011-05-31T21:03:14.756-07:002011-05-31T21:03:14.756-07:00Martini Mom: You nailed it! I wasn't ready to ...Martini Mom: You nailed it! I wasn't ready to deal with the truth. I've been spending so much time beating myself up instead of realizing that I wasn't ready. I just wasn't ready. And that's a tough pill for me to swallow.Buy Me Dinnerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11043077751478614270noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-11273151876116548292011-05-31T20:59:21.172-07:002011-05-31T20:59:21.172-07:00J.R.: "Creative license" - Love it! And ...J.R.: "Creative license" - Love it! And yeah, trying to relax over here. This ice cold Corona is helping! :)Buy Me Dinnerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11043077751478614270noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-87838850600094733312011-05-31T20:53:51.508-07:002011-05-31T20:53:51.508-07:00Pauline: Very true, since that was my initial inte...Pauline: Very true, since that was my initial intention. Sadly, it turned into something else along the way. Considering starting all over. A do-over for my girls!Buy Me Dinnerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11043077751478614270noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-82568137717157955782011-05-31T13:13:02.433-07:002011-05-31T13:13:02.433-07:00It is ever the *real* truth? I mean... all that I ...It is ever the *real* truth? I mean... all that I write is what I'm feeling at the time. That doesn't make it real tomorrow but just what I felt then. It's all perceptive, isn't it?<br /><br />I've been soul searching and trying to deal with things for 5 years now. It's invigorating and exhausting. I'll cheer you on on your journey. I wish you well. <br /><br />And I hope you find your peace along the way.<br /><br />xxoohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10112766306021310705noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-50258687514567328522011-05-31T10:00:00.365-07:002011-05-31T10:00:00.365-07:00I suspect that beginning a journal with the idea t...I suspect that beginning a journal with the idea that our children will someday read it would keep a lot of us from being completely honest! But I also think that a journal holds what we need to say at a particular time in our lives. And sometimes, we're not ready to tell ourselves the truth; sometimes we need to ease ourselves into it. Committing an idea, thought, fear to paper can be frightening - it makes it more *real* - and we're not always ready to commit to those scary truths in our heads. In other words, I'll bet you're not the only one with a sugar coated journal. :) <br /><br />On a much lighter scale, I recently found an old journal of mine from junior high. There were a lot of entries about the object of my affections, mostly about how much I *didn't* like him. Ha! I was completely in love with the guy, but he didn't like me back. Lies though they were, they were what I needed to tell myself at the time in order to deal with my young unrequited love.Martini Momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17907079374624846571noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-1516554026444059532011-05-31T09:48:24.099-07:002011-05-31T09:48:24.099-07:00Let me help you out on this. Remember what Elwood...Let me help you out on this. Remember what Elwood Blues said in the Blues Brothers? "It's not lying, it's just "bullshitting"... In your case it's not, "Fudging", it's called "Creative license". Relax...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7457667854314211626.post-89475840172479156152011-05-31T09:41:10.605-07:002011-05-31T09:41:10.605-07:00If your initial intention was to let your daughter...If your initial intention was to let your daughters read the journal when they were older, then I think you did the right thing by not saying the whole truth. That you can save for this blog!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com